Tuesday, September 27, 2011

a sunflower that never looks back at the sun

I am still the worst blogger ever. Twitter and facebook and every other social media possible just seems better to me than blogging because I only have a certain number of characters to put and I don't have to talk about how I feel.

However, I don't want to just let everyone know how I feel sometimes. And that's when this blog is perfect. Hardly anyone follows me and I can say pretty much what I want since I figure those of you who follow this hardly even read it. Can't blame you, since I never post.

Anyway. I have four rolls of film that I need to develop. I am currently filling out my order for for Clark Color Labs but I am also dreading getting these pictures back. There was a time when I would get really excited and count the days until I would be getting my pictures back. I should be excited for these pictures. I do not remember what the pictures are of, and I can't wait to see what I was doing about 6 months ago in my film life.

But. I am not sure if I want to see pictures from my life 6 months ago. Everything seems so different now and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I haven't been picture-taking in the longest time. I tell myself I have no time. Lame excuse. I am making a blog-promise to myself that next time I go picture taking (hopefully this weekend) I will bring my FILM camera and work it. It's just so hard to make myself go out picture-taking when there's no one to accompany me. I just listen to my music and what not, but it's just a different feel altogether.

I guess everything has a different feel these days. What can I expect.

Sorry for the lame emo post. Maybe I'll try to post something better next time. In the meantime, enjoy a song from The Kooks. I am currently in love with them and planning to go see them at the House of Blues in November. EXCITED!!

P.S. Just found out Clark raised their prices and now it's going to cost me $20 to develop my film. Ouch...my purse strings!